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Stage FrightMy heart is pounding so hard I can't breathe
The audience claps loudly
I know it's my turn next
I start to feel like I'm going to faint
I start to hope I will
My hands are shaking so hard...will I be able to play?
I sit down on the bench. I still can't breathe
Everyone is staring at me
What if I mess up?
I think I'll die if I do
I want to run away
I try to beat my fear
I picture everyone in their underwear but the image is shaking worse than my hands
I want to die right now
I began to play
I miss a note and my heart misses a beat
I miss another one
What if I forget my song?
I forget what comes next
I play the same line again then my fingers remember what my blank mind doesn't
The song goes on, even though I miss another note
I finish, shaking all over
Will I be able to stand up?
I forget to bow, but my face is burning and I run down the steps to my seat
My hands shake for days afterwords, but I did it.
I try to forget I'll have to do it all again next recital at Christmas
what love is not.it was a s l o p p y first kiss where
my drunk lips fumbled against yours.
the dull thwack of my heart,
locked behind curved ribs
cleared my groggy brain,
clouded with lustful premonitions.
it was an e l e c t r i f y i n g first kiss where
you entwined your hands in my hair.
your mouth encompassed mine and
my breath became lost in the steady
of your chest.
it was a s h y first kiss where
i pulled away before you could explore.
your tongue grazed my teeth,
searching for a way past the ivory gates.
i dug my finger into the stubble along your jaw,
my nail lulling your carnal desires.
it was my first kiss with you.
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