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PerfectWhy can't I be perfect?
Why can't I get this right?
Am I not good at anything?
This is so stupid, easy, simple.
There are children better able to do this than me.
I miss another note in frustration, and the tears only add to the anger within.
Why can't I get this?
Why won't my fingers cooperate?
My left hand simply cannot fly any faster over the keys, and my right is such a blur that I start to add accidentals where there are none.
This is when I am at my lowest;
when I become disgustingly superficial.
I'm not pretty, I tell myself.
I am ugly and selfish and worthless but...
But if I could only complete this piece,
If I could do something, if I could be perfect for once,
Then I might have value.
These thoughts are cruel, and they embody something that I do not support.
I never think that about others – they are always beautiful to me. They are not me, so therefore they are perfect in every way; they have no inner voice telling them that they will never, ever be anything but....
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